Making more pie …

We made more pies last Saturday.  I have some great pics of them that I will post this week.  Aside from the pies being really nice, the day was total crap for me.

I made someone mad in my group and I feel bad about it, but also confused.  Confused because I am not sure exactly what I did to make them mad … but there is nothing I can do about it except be sorry, move on, and get over it.  I can’t please everyone all the time, and I will make myself nuts if I try!

Sometimes our teacher can kick some ass, and that kind of scares me.  Especially if I am not sure if I am in the line of her ass-kicking fire.  (Apparently my group wasn’t but we sure felt like we were.)  I ended up getting a little mouthy … something I tend to be when I feel like my back is against the wall and I don’t know why.  I hope I did not make her mad.  (You see the trend for the day, yes?)

Our written mid-term was also this week.  I think I did ok.  Not great.  I can think back to all the questions that I think I got wrong and it makes my palms sweat.  (I have perfection issues)  I had a dream last night I got an ‘F’ on it.  I hope that is just my sub-conscious projecting my insecurity about the exam.  The last thing I need is prophetic dreams of failed mid-terms. 

Next week begins Puff Pastry.  I am nervous and excited about Puff.  I guess it is all the rolling in because I struggled with Danish.  Let’s hope this round of rolling and folding goes better!

If you have been reading you will know I had a culinary school epiphany a few weeks ago:  Don’t think you know it all.

On Saturday I had Epiphany #2:  This is something I WANT to do, not something I HAVE to do, and I do not have to be perfect. 

I need to try hard and learn as much as I can, but being the best is not always the goal.

This makes me feel a lot less neurotic about school, my relationships with my classmates, and my overall performance.   I will just do my best.  Besides, no one is going to tell me I can’t open my own bakery if I did not get the highest score on the mid-term, or bake the most perfect danish of all time!

This is for me, and I need to relax and enjoy it!

Author: Kelly

Share This Post On

Pin It on Pinterest

Share This